I wonders and what if’s

I had moment yesterday, nothing special, nothing particularly striking but it got me thinking and gave me a bit of enough shock to not sleep well over it.

I saw something from way back when and it brought me back to a few years ago when I could have walked a different path had I just made a different choice. I suppose now it is of no consequence but I am guilty of this as I am sure most people are, I sat and wondered and imagined what if?

It’s like that episode of Futurama where the professor fine-tunes his “what-if?” machine and right at the end you find out he really wanted to know what if he invented the fingerlonger. Do we ever stop wondering about how things might have been?

Whether that particular point in each of our lives was one of joy, a moment of embarrasment or guilt at something we may or may not have done to or for someone and if whether we have shut it from our conscious minds that we almost forgot it was there doesn’t really make it go away. So how do we learn to live with it and live in our present and not wonder about what ifs and maybes?

I wonder…..